My Story before Treatment for Depression
Depression is a major risk factor for suicide. My experience with suicidal ideation leading to an attempt occurred twice in my life:
1. I was a college junior and recently married, but the "black dog" of depression kept getting worse. It started after my Mother's sudden death when I was 14.
My solution: lay down in front of a gas header in our apartment bathroom and close the door. I'm not sure why I turned off the gas, but I did after a couple of minutes; perhaps, I was afraid of death or did not want to risk causing property damage.
2. After chronic unemployment and having lost a new job after just one week, I wrote a suicide email and planned to get a hose, attach it to the exhaust pipe of my car and run it to the driver's side window. The email saved me because a friend came to the rescue before I actually got the hose.
There are nearly 40,000 suicides in the U.S. each year. I could have been another one.
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